Friday, February 1, 2013

Afraid {Five Minute Friday}

It is Friday, so I am linking up again with Five Minute Friday over at Lisa-Jo Baker's website.  We write for just five minutes about a prompt that she gives us.  No over thinking, no editing. Just my style.  And this week's word is AFRAID.

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Afraid.  Am I afraid?  Do I even allow myself to think about my fear?  Isaac and Jacob called you the Fear.  Yet, I am not usually afraid of you.  Maybe I should have more fear of the Lord.  And less fear of the world.  Fear of what happens if I do go back to work.  And what happens if I don't. 
Fear of relationships, pain, and ...

And, I guess the rest of my fear comes from protecting my pride.  Not exactly something to be proud of.
Does that come from years of making sure that no one sees when I am afraid?
And how to I cease striving and just let You make me into what you want me to be?
 
Maybe I am too afraid to let go?  Things for me to meditate on in Your presence.

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  1. Your comment that you left me literally brought tears to my eyes. You are a great encourager.

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    1. Thanks Jen. I'm sorry happy to hear you say that. Lately I have felt that encouragement is something God has gifted me with that I need to be using for His glory.

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  2. Awww love this !! Thank you for sharing and opening your heart!!!

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  3. Couldn't we all use less fear of the world? Loved this!

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    1. Yes, definitely less fear of the world. Thank you Karrilee :)

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  4. meditate on in His presence. I just love your heart.
    My grandma used to tell me fear was a mere distraction from truth. some days I see what she meant. other days, my pride gets in the way...

    let go and let God. maybe that's all my mission statement needs to be?
    praying for you, friend. anxious for an update {HUGS}

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    1. Thanks Nikki. I think God is actually calling me to go back to work. And I have been resisting. I'm trying to figure out how to make my theology match my reality. How can I believe that moms should be home with their kids but that God is telling me to go to work? Anyway, I hope I'll see you tonight at the #FMFparty

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